Questions A-Z

In keeping with the theme of my blog mentor I've found a blog quiz of my own online. 

A. What are your favourite smells? Fresh coffee, eucalyptus & mint, anything baking

B. Can you go a whole day without caffeine? Yes but is isn't pretty

C. Who knows more about you than anyone else? My husband

D. What song did you last listen to? Hot Dog Dance thanks to my toddler...

E. Do you have a crush on anybody? Usher

F. Do you like The Beatles? LOVE

G. If you could choose one color to wear for a whole year, what color would you choose? Purple...it works for all seasons

H. Do you cook often? Yes. I love to cook but don't always have time. 

I. What was the last film you watched? Did you like it? Finding Nemo. I love Disney

J. Can you sew? Yes. Very well

K. What is your favorite fruit? Tough to pick just one...pineapple, peaches, strawberries, peaches...whatever is fresh and in season

L. Are you health conscious? Not as much as I should be

M. What's the strangest thing you've eaten? My opinion, uni (sea urchin roe) but others would probably say scrapple. 

N. Do you curse a lot? Not as much as I used to. 

O. When was the last time you had a pint of beer? Last month

P. Are you pro life or pro choice? Pro choice for as long as I can remember. 

Q. Is there a certain food you often crave for no reason? Sushi

R. What was the last book you purchased? Sh*tty Mom

S. Where was your last vacation? Dallas but that was technically because of a conference. 

T. Do you shave your pits? Absolutely

U. Did you ever play seven minutes in heaven? No

V. When was the last time you went out without a bra? Anytime I'm home and not expecting company

W. When was the last time you went commando in public? Not a fan

X. Have you ever broken a bone? If so, how did it happen? Yes. Sled riding and went straight into a frozen lilac bush

Y. How do you like your eggs? I'll eat them pretty much any way

Z. What was your last argument about and who with? Husband. Attitude. 

Friends....

People who have known me for a while always think I'm a very social person. Truth is I'm not. Even my Birkman will tell you I'm selectively social. When I'm in a new group of people I tend to sit back and observe. It takes a while before I start to trust someone and let them into my circle. I usually only have one or two close friends and then the circles ripple out from there. 

The early years all the way through the majority of high school my BFF was there. I trusted her with everything. We went through a lot of those awkward years until junior prom. Junior prom she had a boyfriend and I didn't. No big deal but she ended up at a couples party and I had a group of singles at my house. Long story short, crazy boys from their party plotted revenge on a boy at my party causing him to stay later than my other guests. This is the time when idiot boy attempted to rape me. Fortunately my mother arrived in the nick of time and stopped me from being a statistic. It was still traumatic and when I told my BFF she didn't believe me. Our friendship was never the same but we have reconnected as adults, but I think this set the precident for how I connect with my friends from this point forward. 

 

Then there's Jeff. He's like a brother to me. We even shared an apartment until I moved in with my now husband. He and his family are still a part of my life and he's my child's godfather. I can't imagine life without him, but because of distance we aren't as close as we once were which makes me sad. We do however pick up where we left off as soon as we're together. I just wish we had more face to face time and I know he does too. 

Texas has never entirely felt like home. Maybe that's because we don't have people to return to when we leave. No family or friends like family. There have been a few people that got pretty far into my circles but at some point I'm disappointed and hurt. You really do find out who your friends are when you have a baby. Fortunately I was able to find some good friends with a child as well. 

Through my daughter's Playgroup I have met some amazing women. Some I know I'll know for a long time and some will fade in and out as our children grow. 

Someone once told me that some friends are made to last a lifetime while others are only around for a season. Both have purpose, but you don't want to spend all your energy on a season when you have a lifetime. 

I'll drink to that...

I can't count how many times this week I've said "I am 38 years old!" Some people are embarrassed by their age, I wear it more like battle stripes. I've had the opportunity to travel, experience life and learn who I am and who I'm not. I don't love everything about myself (who does) but I do like the person I am. Lots of people have a false impression of who they think I am and yet very few people truly know me.

I have been accused of being a "party girl" mother. This amuses be greatly and couldn't be further from the truth. I used to be a party girl. I enjoyed a good time and drank regularly until I became pregnant. Mostly wine at home or at dinner but if I went out to a happy hour or hung with my friends I DRANK! I was that person that never turned down a drink and was always up for a good time. The key to all of this is that I also never drove drunk. I have been drunk on many occasions but I will never get behind a wheel that way. I have consumed alcohol and driven but that's a whole other topic... Now that I'm a mom I always know that at some point it's likely that my daughter will WANT me. She may not need me but she will almost always want me and Murphy knows it will happen at the worst possible time. This is on my mind as I drink and creates a self imposed mommy limit. I'm perfectly ok with that. What I'm not ok with is people on their high horse judging or making assumptions about my alcohol consumption. In fact, I'd like to take a wine bottle (empty of course...no alcohol abuse) and shove it up their ass! This would be difficult however because this is also where their head is usually located. 

In case you didn't know, a bottle of wine is only 4 glasses. When consumed with food and shared with friends over an evening is no big deal. So next time you want to judge someone based upon things you know nothing about...cork it!

Damn my friends! AKA the countdown of me

I guess it's fitting that I update my "weekly" blog a month later. My bad. I was bullied into this (because I opened my big mouth) so here we go...all in random order.

TEN of my favorite foods
1. Garden cheesesteak - provolone, lettuce, tomatoes, mayo, hot pepper relish, grilled onions
2. Perfectly seared steak with blue cheese
3. Foie Gras
4. Sushi
5. Lamb chops
6. Duck breast
7. Bagel & lox
8. Chocolate peanut butter anything
9. Cheese in all forms
10. Curry Pferdewurst

NINE of my all-time favorite movies (that I could think of)
1. Whip it
2. Harry Potter
3. Anne of Avonlea
4. The Help
5. Nightmare Before Christmas
6. Silence of the Lambs
7. The Little Mermaid
8. Love Actually
9. Steel Magnolias

EIGHT celebrities I'd like to marry
1. Usher
2. Alexander Skarsgard
3. Jude Law
4. Joe Manganiello
5. Gerard Butler
6. David Beckham
7. Taye Diggs
8. Shemar Moore

SEVEN things I'm loving right now
1. Date nights with my husband
2. Nights out with my girls
3. Snuggles with my Katie
4. Working out again
5. Humidifier
6. Trail mix
7. Pinterest (evil time suck)

SIX places I'd like to visit someday
1. Disneyland
2. France
3. London
4. Australia
5. PEI & Halifax
6. British Columbia

FIVE games I played as a child
1. Life
2. Freeze tag
3. Hide & seek
4. UNO
5. Parcheesi

FOUR things I'd rather never see again
1. A loved one in the hospital
2. Flashing lights in my rearview mirror
3. Plumber crack
4. Allergies

THREE things I'd like to do this year
1. Figure out my next career move
2. Work on me
3. Learn German

TWO facts about me
1. I can not whistle
2. I'd rather scrub a toilet than wash dishes

ONE meaning behind my blog name
1. People tend to judge based upon something superficial....go ahead and judge me...I don't care. I'm also huge Yoda fan and total geek.

Day 1

Every year I wait until my birthday is over to start any "new year" changes so that means today is day 1. Back to the breakfast smoothies I drank throughout my pregnancy & nursing, LOTS of water and 2 snacks a day. Once we get the food straight we get back on the exercise. I have about 60lbs to get to my first goal... 5lbs at a time.

All good things come to an end...

My birthday week began on Friday with my gay birthday. This tradition randomly started about 8 - 10 years ago when quite a few of my gays started wishing my happy birthday 3 days before my actual birthday. One might think it was a conspiracy but the irony is most of the gays don't know each other and they all live in different places. It was just strange gay kismet that continues as a funny tradition year after year. Hubby & I managed a great date night and celebrated my birthday in style. My actual birthday turned into a pretty good family day and I wrapped the week up with a fun MNO with some great mommy friends. There's always been a rule that the birthday is over when the birthday cake is gone, so it was officially over on Sunday. Another year older, but no big deal. Check back in 2 years and see if I feel the same way about 40!

Blood and other liquids...

So this week is all about wet things. Sunday it was a burst pipe between the living room and kitchen. As odd as it sounds we were lucky it leaked around the ceiling speaker or we could've had a much bigger problem on our hands. We have an awesome plumber that quickly fixed the problem and didn't charge an arm & leg for a Sunday afternoon. We are fortunate enough to have good friends to help us with our toddler during the chaos. The week continues with a bloody nose that just wouldn't quit. So bad that it required a trip to the ER. After 4 hours of bleeding off and on and several attempts to stop it for more than 15 minutes at a time, they decided not to pack the nose (nasal tampon) and instead they cauterized 4 different spots in my nose with silver nitrate. Basically 4 chemical burns in a very sensitive spot without any anesthesia. I could feel & smell the burn! At least it was stopped until the next day when it started again. I went to ENT where they cauterized more but with anesthesia and some amazing Drs. The rest of the week was better but rainy and blah. Hopefully things will start looking up and our house & health will be back to normal.

And so it begins...

So I'm finally going to start a blog. Why? I say why not! I've got nothing to lose. I feel this is a big year of change and why not put pen to paper (so to speak) and hold myself accountable for setting my own changes in motion. I imagine this will also be a place for me to vent about life, as I see it and share anything that I feel may be of interest. I am not a fabulous writer. I am only clever in my own mind and I'm not sure if anyone has any interest in what I have to say. With all that being said...let's get this show on the road!

I've always said if you're not happy with your current situation then do something about it or suck it up! I just don't see the point of whining. Last year I took my own advice and started to change my perspective so I could be overall happer with my new life. Just when I was getting comfortable with my daily life and my new definition of self it looks like 2013 is going to have even more changes in store for me. I'd love to be the person that immeditately says "Bring it on!" but I'm more of a "Seriously?" girl. So you'll have to bear with me while I work up the enthusiasm and motivation to "Be the change I want to be!".